"You know you're in love when...
When all the chaos and confusion of the world makes complete and utter sense simply because he's right there looking at you. "
Eh...the only redeemable line from ABC Family's Original movie, "Best Man- Worst Friend." Surprisingly it had all British actors, so the accents were neat to listen to, but the plot was throughly predictable. Jen and I also watched this Russel Crowe movie called, "The Silver Stallion." We were thinking, "Ok..Russell Crowe and horses- how can it be bad?" But over half the movie was spent in just watching wild horses run (and Russell Crowe trying to catch one) which was good, but a little much. We both wished it would have developed his character a little more rather than the horses character.
I didn't go to church today and I dont think my conscience is going to ease up on me. Not going because of exhaustion is not a very Reformed Presbyterian answer. It's almost like, gasp, a Baptist answer. Not to diss Baptists or anything- I happen to be related to one...and he's a keeper. But, I did get some time to think about worship and what it means and why its sometimes MORE restful not to go to worship than to go and if thats ok or not. There are so many good things that Redeemer does...and yet why doesn't it excite me? I love not having Sunday school, or children's church, or a youth group. I love kneeling for the confession of sins and I love using liturgy- like chanting and standing for prayer. Pastor Jordan is by far the best pastor I've ever had to sit under and learn Scripture from and I love his sermons. Yet there is no spark- no stirring of emotions- no joy in songs- and there is definitely an "in crowd" and an "out crowd." So my brain likes to go, but my heart doesnt.
Visting City Presbyterian in Denver was such a refresher because "wow!" they sang about six songs! And they were good songs too, with good musicians. But the sermon was only about twenty minutes and they have a children's church...and fellowship in the middle of the service. Agh! Is there no balance? I hope and am fervantly searching after a church that unites heart and mind, and reason and joy together and THATs where I want to go. That's where I want to learn preperation for marriage and child raising. That's where I want to meet the man I'm going to marry. That's where I want to build the kingdom of God!
Do I have to put my heart on hold for now though?
Eh...the only redeemable line from ABC Family's Original movie, "Best Man- Worst Friend." Surprisingly it had all British actors, so the accents were neat to listen to, but the plot was throughly predictable. Jen and I also watched this Russel Crowe movie called, "The Silver Stallion." We were thinking, "Ok..Russell Crowe and horses- how can it be bad?" But over half the movie was spent in just watching wild horses run (and Russell Crowe trying to catch one) which was good, but a little much. We both wished it would have developed his character a little more rather than the horses character.
I didn't go to church today and I dont think my conscience is going to ease up on me. Not going because of exhaustion is not a very Reformed Presbyterian answer. It's almost like, gasp, a Baptist answer. Not to diss Baptists or anything- I happen to be related to one...and he's a keeper. But, I did get some time to think about worship and what it means and why its sometimes MORE restful not to go to worship than to go and if thats ok or not. There are so many good things that Redeemer does...and yet why doesn't it excite me? I love not having Sunday school, or children's church, or a youth group. I love kneeling for the confession of sins and I love using liturgy- like chanting and standing for prayer. Pastor Jordan is by far the best pastor I've ever had to sit under and learn Scripture from and I love his sermons. Yet there is no spark- no stirring of emotions- no joy in songs- and there is definitely an "in crowd" and an "out crowd." So my brain likes to go, but my heart doesnt.
Visting City Presbyterian in Denver was such a refresher because "wow!" they sang about six songs! And they were good songs too, with good musicians. But the sermon was only about twenty minutes and they have a children's church...and fellowship in the middle of the service. Agh! Is there no balance? I hope and am fervantly searching after a church that unites heart and mind, and reason and joy together and THATs where I want to go. That's where I want to learn preperation for marriage and child raising. That's where I want to meet the man I'm going to marry. That's where I want to build the kingdom of God!
Do I have to put my heart on hold for now though?
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