Resting 'neath Thy smile Lord Jesus....earth's dark shadows flee

It is true. Having the responsibility of a "mom" suddenly thrown on me, and having both parents out of the country- its only made me love Jesus one thousand times more. AND its made me realize his love for me one million times more! Why does it take trials and hard circumstances for us to stand back in awe of God's blessings?! I dont know... but I'm sure glad he does it.

I feel I will make a lousy Mom. Although I will have more time to prepare when I have my own kids...but I feel I'm not doing such a great job. I wish I was one thousandth as patient and kind as I want to be and not self-seeking or easily angered. I wish I sought the good of others and not just be barking out commands all the time. Ehh...wishes. I know Jesus is teaching me in all of this, but oh my gosh ITS SO HARD!!!!!

I need my Mom. Pray for me please. If it weren't for fantastic friends who are ready and willing to help I'd be going insane!!