"Wrapped in Sunlight waiting."

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

"Slowly the fire engine stalks its prey...

The ambulances will have to wait thier turn." OK- First and last Family Guy quote on this site...unless of course I find another funny and unusally clean one.

I know I haven't posted in awhile with the number one reason of a computer temper tantrum. And I'm not the parent given the rod to spank either; I'm just a helpless bystander. I think the repair will be extraordinairly expensive, thus the question posed is do I fork the money over or buy a new one? Of course I want a new one, but I dont think I can afford a new computer and help Dad make payments on a car. So I'll just wait until Dad gets to feeling better to make a decision.

So, I haven't really been able to get on the computer in awhile, unless I'm doing the most basic absolutley nessacary things to survive, like check email. Haha. Nah, I've gotta do alot of writing this semester so I'll have to squeeze time in on the family computer. Or I could just ask how to use campus computers. I think that'd be eaiser.

In a recent letter to my Grandmother, I apologized for not writing to her sooner, with the excuse of having been very busy with Mom and Dad out of the country, grandparents here, Sarah and Graham visting and school starting. But I got to thinking thats usually how I start my letters, "I'm sorry I've been so busy!" Is there ever a time I'm not going to be busy? Was there ever a time? How did life get so crazy? Obviously it's not too crazy because I can get my school done, go to the gym, babysit and sort of half way function, but what about time to do projects? To read with my siblings? To read books that are hard and require thinking? To look out for others? To keep the house clean and the laundry kept up? To spring clean my room or keep the house organized? To go on a walk or a bike ride?
Why is life just functioning to get to the next day? I told myself this morning I need a month's vacation at the beach. It sounds good, but it probably wouldn't help much. Life still exists and goes on. Papers still need to writen, books read, worksheets filled out, and calories burned. Dinner needs to be cooked, laundry needs to washed and counters straightened. So I'm sitting here writing about it, instead of actually getting my stuff done. Maybe thats the problem. Procrastination... Nah.
I was thinking today if someone asked me what the most important thing to me was, I'd probably say "Kingdom Building." Well... maybe not... you can't have a Kingdom without a King. But anyway, the next question is, "Does your life reflect that? Or do you spend your time pursuing something else?" Naturally when I hear Kingdom Building I think of churches planted, volunteer work and missionaires going overseas. That's all fine, but isn't what Christians do day in and day out just as important? Is making a bed, or sweeping a floor or putting forth the best effort on school work or cleaning the house to please Dad Kingdom building too? I think so. So either thats an excuse to get out of the "big stuff" or a reason to be happy and content today. Then I can have the peace of mind to worry about or get to the big stuff later. :-)